I have a need to do so much more: to give and sacrifice where others are lacking. My heart aches for so much change in the world, and aches to do more. When I saw this video, I was filled with a heartache and a thought of “this is what I should be doing…” How I have missed out on giving and walking in the world to encounter more of God’s Grace. But I will wait in patience as He knows the time that I must leave, and I wait on Him. When the time comes, I cannot look backwards but fasten my eyes on the one true God’s calling for me. I thank the Father for letting me be a witness of His love and a follower of Christ.
sobbing weeping crying
are these a way of calling
when there are no words
left unspoken
completely broken
in pieces they come
but in unity they become
i want to know
how to hear from the Lord
how to decrease
so that He can be made more
Holy Spirit come
You are welcomed here
make my heart Your home
i thought i heard You
when i asked You
if i should turn around
to go back to a person unfound
You put a burden on my heart
to turn my car around
and i did so in obedience
now when i went back
i saw no man nor woman
no signs of the car
so i asked, ‘why?’
You replied, ‘by you turning
around you saved that person’s life.’
i was perplexed as to how
God revealed that obedience is key
to small things left unexplained
one little thing that you do
is one big thing to the Father in Heaven
rely on Him fully
with a heavy heart that yearns
and is willing to hear
i want to change still
and grow closer to the Lord
i want to hear still
from the Voice that made me
i want to feel still
the Presence of the Almighty
i cannot wait to receive
i have given up
on understanding everything
on trying for man
on being who i am not
on letting my failures be my identity
on accepting all that comes
except on Hope renewed
looking at where i am now
i know that i have much
and realize how little things
build up to greater things
i am a little thing
but God wants me
because i am so worth it
i say this not to boast
but in revelation
of how grand and full of wisdom
is this plan that God
has in store for each
and every one of us
because He knows all
God does right
and He expects us to do right
in order for us to know Him
because He is a righteous God
so I must live right
in order to see more of His Light
in my own life