I have a need to do so much more: to give and sacrifice where others are lacking.  My heart aches for so much change in the world, and aches to do more. When I saw this video, I was filled with a heartache and a thought of “this is what I should be doing…” How I have missed out on giving and walking in the world to encounter more of God’s Grace. But I will wait in patience as He knows the time that I must leave, and I wait on Him. When the time comes, I cannot look backwards but fasten my eyes on the one true God’s calling for me. I thank the Father for letting me be a witness of His love and a follower of Christ.

 

sobbing weeping crying

are these a way of calling

when there are no words

left unspoken

completely broken

in pieces they come

but in unity they become

 

i want to know

how to hear from the Lord

how to decrease

so that He can be made more

Holy Spirit come

You are welcomed here

make my heart Your home

 

i thought i heard You

when i asked You

if i should turn around

to go back to a person unfound

You put a burden on my heart

to turn my car around

and i did so in obedience

 

now when i went back

i saw no man nor woman

no signs of the car

so i asked, ‘why?’

You replied, ‘by you turning

around you saved that person’s life.’

i was perplexed as to how

 

God revealed that obedience is key

to small things left unexplained

one little thing that you do

is one big thing to the Father in Heaven

rely on Him fully

with a heavy heart that yearns

and is willing to hear

 

i want to change still

and grow closer to the Lord

i want to hear still

from the Voice that made me

i want to feel still

the Presence of the Almighty

i cannot wait to receive

 

i have given up

on understanding everything

on trying for man

on being who i am not

on letting my failures be my identity

on accepting all that comes

except on Hope renewed

 

looking at where i am now

i know that i have much

and realize how little things

build up to greater things

i am a little thing

but God wants me

because i am so worth it

 

i say this not to boast

but in revelation

of how grand and full of wisdom

is this plan that God

has in store for each

and every one of us

because He knows all

 

God does right

and He expects us to do right

in order for us to know Him

because He is a righteous God

so I must live right

in order to see more of His Light

in my own life